Blossom.

I have realized tonight that the time has come for me to truly put the past behind me, and to stop trying to bring it back. I wanted to keep holding on to you, and our memories but the longer i hold on, the more my heart breaks. I took the first step, by destroying all the physical memories that were left lying around in my room. The second step was expressing my true feelings to you, and coming to peace verbally about the situation. But now, what is left, are my thoughts and memories which are continuing to strangle my mind.

I say one thing, but then feel the opposite. It's time that i truly start to take action on the things i have said to you. At this stage of my life, when it comes down to the last straw, the only person who can make the decisions of life for me is, myself. Me. It's time for me to take this thing that we once had, full circle. Unlock my heart, gather up all the memories it holds... the ones that i just can't seem to let go. And finally, set them free. Set me free, and bring my mind to ease.

There is nothing more i can do. And i know that. But now it is time, to show it. It's time for me to blossom from my bud, and grow into a beautiful flower. Nothing more to hold me back.


And i know that someday, i will find what i'm looking for.